Who would have thought it, an outgoing young man in his 20’s being scared of going outside or socialising?
You never really understand why people are so scared until you have that fear yourself. I have never washed my hands so much, never been so afraid of shaking peoples hands, never been so paranoid about my health in the whole of my life. I guess this is all natural as it’s just my body and mind going into survival mode.
One of the worst parts for me throughout the whole experience was catching infections. If you haven’t read already I got E. coli, I had a temperature up to 41.5 degrees Celsius and was in HDU for 8-10 days. (Sorry I can’t remember exactly). These were all from infections. The doctors and nurses say that the majority of infections are caused from the bugs already inside your body but this didn’t stop me from making sure I didn’t catch anyone’s cold!! Which is harder than you think since everyone who seemed to come visit had one!!!
I could honestly hear a sneeze or cough from a mile off. I made sure everyone washed their hands before coming in contact with me. All in all I was such a freak, but it wasn’t just me. My mum scrubbed the sides ten times over. We went through copious amounts of antiseptic wipes. I know for a fact the majority of patients felt the exact same way. The whole time I was looking for germs. I was seeing things that weren’t even there.
I have to say sorry now. Sorry to everyone who wanted to come visit and I didn’t allow them to. When I look back now I wish I had but at the time I couldn’t think of anything worse. Sorry to my family who I shouted at many times when they were just trying to help.